Today we celebrate moms. Being a mom, or having a mom. It's always a bit of an emotional day for me. I have always been overwhelmed by the gift my kids are to me. I am at a phase in motherhood where I can look at new moms, or younger moms with a couple or few kids and just smile with understanding for what is happening to them! I'm going to describe motherhood as if it were a ride at an amusement park.
So it's a great day and you're walking through the amusement park when you come upon a ride, the sign for the ride looks like letters firm horror movie. You've heard about the ride, you've wanted to try the ride, but you have seen others come off of the ride and you're nervous. you enter the line and approach the door to the ride, the ride is enclosed and is completely dark. You hesitate, but you can't turn back. The wait in the line is like pregnancy, it's ok at the beginning but becomes tiresome and annoying toward the end. You finally make it to the end of the line and its time to get the ride started. You sit in the seat, when someone half your age straps you in and makes sure you're secure and safe. The first stages of motherhood start with a fast jolt and thrust into a dark tunnel of sleepless nights, endless diaper changes, and constant questions of whats next, as your being turned upside down in the dark, you ask, "what is going on?' Then things level out and you feel like the ride is ok, baby is sleeping better and you feel good. Then suddenly, you're going in reverse and you can't see what's behind you, it turns out to be teething, and endless amounts of drool, which are likely accompanied by runny noses. As the toddler and preschool years approach, the ride takes you climbing, you feel ok about it, almost on top of the world, then suddenly the voice of reason and full sentences are being spoken by this little human and they talk back with attitude, you suddenly plummet to the earth as your stomach leaves your body you begin to feel nauseous and wonder if there's a way off the ride. the twists and turns carry on all through the adolescent and teen years. you go up, only to come flying straight back down again. At times feeling very inadequate as a mom, and the nausea comes and goes. Then something happens, the ride levels out and it comes to a controlled and slow stop. The ride has ended, it's time to get off. You feel a little weak in the knees, not sure if you're ready to get off, but you have to. The ride that felt like an eternity has come to an end. Thats where I am now. With 2 of 6 kids still at home, I am much passed the the unpredictable days of motherhood. There are no more sleepless nights, tantrums, diapers, or book reading. Getting off the ride has been scary, theres a void , I am still needed, however their needs are different. Today on Mothers Day, I always reflect on what my ride has taught me. I conclude with the fact,that I will always be their mom, they will always need me, but being off the ride is different . I am seeing the fruits of the sacrifices that have been made . If I ever second guess what it was all for, I look at the good humans they have become and are becoming. that is after all what I want, respectful, kind, successful men and women! Today I received a hand written card form my 10 year old Ben. It read as follows...
I want to sa thank you. You have made me dinner, made my lunch, got us stuff when it was your day. You are the most BEAUTIFUL, amazing mom. you always say hab a na day (a line form everybody loves Raymond, mean have a nice day) every time I leave to go to school. You always cheer me up when I am tired or sad. you are infinitely the best mom in the world.
THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING.
This was the best gift ever. Also, I am still needed. If you are in line for the ride, make sure you have dramamine. If you're on the ride, hold on, you can't get off, if you're like me and the ride has slowed and you're getting off, rejoice in what you've done. It is the best job in the world. The sacrifices are great, and the rewards are greater. Given the opportunity I'd get the express pass to take the ride over and over again! God Bless all of the moms in my life!
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